Africa
was
where
he
had
been
happiest
in
the
good
time
of
his
life
,
so
he
had
come
out
here
to
start
again
.
They
had
made
this
safari
with
the
minimum
of
comfort
.
There
was
no
;
but
there
was
no
luxury
and
he
had
thought
that
he
could
get
back
into
training
that
way
.
That
in
some
he
could
work
the
fat
off
his
soul
the
way
a
fighter
went
into
the
mountains
to
work
and
train
in
order
to
burn
it
out
of
his
body
.
She
had
liked
it
.
She
said
she
loved
it
.
She
loved
that
was
exciting
,
that
a
change
of
scene
,
where
there
were
new
people
and
where
things
were
pleasant
.
And
he
had
felt
the
illusion
of
returning
strength
of
will
to
work
.
Now
if
this
was
how
it
ended
,
and
he
knew
it
was
,
he
must
not
turn
like
some
snake
biting
itself
because
its
back
was
broken
.
It
wasn
?
t
this
woman
?
s
.
If
it
had
not
been
she
it
would
have
been
.
If
he
lived
by
a
lie
he
try
to
die
by
it
.
He
heard
a
shot
beyond
the
hill
.
She
shot
very
well
this
good
,
this
rich
bitch
,
this
kindly
caretaker
and
destroyer
of
his
talent
.
Nonsense
.
He
had
his
talent
himself
.
Why
should
he
this
woman
because
she
kept
him
well
?
He
had
destroyed
his
talent
by
not
using
it
,
by
of
himself
and
what
he
believed
in
,
by
drinking
so
much
that
he
blunted
the
edge
of
his
perceptions
,
by
laziness
,
by
,
and
by
snobbery
,
by
pride
and
by
prejudice
,
by
hook
and
by
crook
.
What
was
this
?
A
catalogue
of
old
books
?
What
was
his
talent
anyway
?
It
was
a
talent
all
right
but
instead
of
using
it
,
he
had
on
it
.
It
was
never
what
he
had
done
,
but
always
what
he
could
do
.
And
he
had
to
make
his
living
with
something
else
instead
of
a
pen
or
a
pencil
.
It
was
strange
,
too
,
wasn
?
t
it
,
that
when
he
fell
in
love
with
another
woman
,
that
woman
should
always
have
more
money
than
the
last
one
?
But
when
he
no
longer
was
in
love
,
when
he
was
only
lying
,
as
to
this
woman
,
now
,
who
had
the
most
money
of
all
,
who
had
all
the
money
there
was
,
who
had
had
a
husband
and
children
,
who
had
taken
lovers
and
been
with
them
,
and
who
loved
him
dearly
as
a
writer
,
as
a
man
,
as
a
companion
and
as
a
proud
;
it
was
strange
that
when
he
did
not
love
her
at
all
and
was
lying
,
that
he
should
be
able
to
give
her
more
for
her
money
than
when
he
had
really
loved
.
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